so... it's a little past midnight  and i'm on my laptop in bed watching alice (freaking crazy) ripley videos on youtube.  i love her, seriously, she is so amazingly talented and just uber great but she is an odd cookie.  anyway...  i didn't do much today.  went out to eat with a friend and watched flashdance.  not a great movie...........  i dont know, i think all the close up shots of sweaty thighs complemented by annoying 80's music kind of ruined the experience a bit.


in every look
beneath the sky
the stars shook
and galaxies collide
i was your rock
and now i'm broken
splintered into pebbles 
that won't hold you
and the clouds will fall
the sun will shine
but not for me
i've got other things on my mind
on my mind
the time has come
we go our seperate ways
and though space and time
come crashing down
these mistakes i've made
make me certain
that i will not be the one who stays


anyway.  i had a momene wherei had to get all that stuff out of my head.  it's crappy but whatevs.  oh.  i really really really miss my photoshop.  k bye.

well.  long time.  i'm pretty sure this is how all my updates start. i have to make this short because i'm leaving for a wal-mart shopping trip in approximately 9 minutes.   my phone just died in my pocket... just thought i'd let you know.

well...
-the summer has been quite a roller coaster.  i've had some really fun times and some really shitty ones.  i've lost friends, i've made some.  i've worked my butt off. 
-one of my best friends has become so repulsive over the past 2-3 months that i almost cant stand it anymore.  and that really hurts me, because at the same time, i don't want to lose him.  but i leave in a week, so i suppose it's whatever.
-like i said, i leave in a week, well a week and one day to be exact, for my first year at college.  i am so ready for it, it's insane.  it took me awhile to realize it, but i am sick of this place.  i know i'm going to miss it when i'm gone, but, that's how it goes... you don't know what you've got until it's gone... i'm not going to argue with that.

some kerry butler love.......  it's kind of fitting actually.  i'm gonna fly fly away...

peace and love and all those good things.

update!

so i haven't posted anything meaningful in a good couple of months so here is what's happening in my life...
- turned 18.  i can legally buy cigarettes, porn, guns, spray paint, AND cough medicine; get a tatoo, and go gambling.  so... yeah... i'm an adult.
-on said birthday i got to register for classes at college.  that was pretty lame.  best thing about college so far... my classes don't start til 9:30 and 10 AM.  yaay for sleep!
-my friend and i are seriously considering going to see Jim Gaffigan in Duluth.  his new special is geniussss.  the only problem is i have yet to alert my mother of this idea... yeah.
- Easter break is this week!  early out on wednesday, no school. monday and tuesday= 2 hour late starts for testing.  i LOVE being a senior and not having to do stuff.
-i really want to watch Marley and Me at the moment.
-oh, i also started the last quarter of my high school career.  i have independent study first block.  i go to the theater and read any book i want.  it's amazing.  and my teacher/supervisor is one of my favorite people ever so that just makes it better.  
-i have like... 36 days of school left... i think.  i don't actually know when our last day is... hah.
-i'm hungry
-driving around listening to music with friends is the best feeling ever.  just letting you know.

well, that's about it for now. 
 

bahahahahahahahahahahaha

so it's really cold outside, and it's been snowing all day, and it's supposed snow all through the night.  mmmmmm snow.  i hope school gets cancelled.  that would make me a very happy girl.

uhm..... i went to the dentist today... i got my mouthguard.  i feel like such a dork when i put it in. i have to wear it when i sleep because i grind my teeth a LOT.  but yeah...

we had our school madrigal dinner this past weekend.  apparently it went really well and our choir director just loved our groups song we sang... yeah, we're awesome.  not really, but yeah.

we decorated our christmas tree on saturday.  it was awesome.... i love christmas.

i really have nothing to say right now... my friend wanted to go hot tubbing in the snow tonight,  that would have been so fun, but she had shit to do... grawr.  i'm bored.

wow it's been awhile.  i had a FAN-FREAKING-TASTIC day today.  and i'm not quite sure why.  but anywho, i went to school, blah blah... yeah.  got my music for the school musical finally.  we're doing Jekyll & Hyde.  i'm playing french horn, not singing, don't worry about it.  got home from school ate like an entire bag of flavor blasted goldfish, mmmmm, they are so addicting.  and then i went to a meeting thing for my government class, so boring... gov't class fails at life, except when the teacher talks about the SNL skits with Tina FALIN.  i fucking LOVE Tina Fey.  she is my hero.  anyway.  then i had to go back to the school for a marching band picture which went well and talked to a friend and got some juicy-ass gossip, shit, it was amazing.  i feel the need swear alot in this entry.  anyway, and then i hung out with my friends who were home from college.  it was fun, and i'm so not tired at all.  so i decided to make an entry...

oh and i know this is late but i forgot to mention it...ENDING OF XANADU, TITLE OF SHOW, AND LEGALLY BLONDE!?!?!? BROADWAY+CRAPPY ASS ECONOMY= EPIC FAIL. 

even tina falin agrees...

a kid in my school/grade committed suicide yesterday.  it's such an unbelievably surreal feeling.  i don't think it has totally sunk in yet.  i never thought something like this could happen.  you will be missed.  rest in peace.